In The Name of Allah The Most Gracious The Most Merciful
Alhamdulillah, All praise is due to Allah, the Lord and Cherisher of the Universe. May His peace and blessings be upon our beloved prophet, Muhammad (PBUH), his household, companions and all followers of the right guidance till the Day of Judgment.
When I talked to people that I’m in a new phase now, most of people thought that I’m pregnant and gonna be a mother soon. Unfortunately, that is not the case. Alhamdulillah, early february, my husband has moved to Penang and we now staying outside USM. I’m no longer stay at the hostel. Everything has changed completely since he moved here. Now, I’m “married”.huhu.. Before this, we lived separately. I can manage my time and my workload. When I went back to his home, I’ve finished all my task or at least plan in nicely so it will not disturb my schedule.
But now, everything has changed. I have to re-schedule my time. Honestly, I feel like I cant really cope at first. I tend to neglect either one of my duty. It is not easy. My body is a lil bit weak. I feel tired easily. Till now, I’m struggling. I’m writing this post because I need to explain to many people so that they will understand, I cant be like I’m before. I know my husband fully understand my responsibility outside the house. But still as a wife, I’ve to honor and respect him the most. I’ve to fulfil his needs before others need.
My promise to my husband is, if I cant balance my work outside my house until I neglect my duty inside the house, me myself will give up everything to fulfil my promise as he already tolerate and give his permission to do what I want and dreamed for. So, I shouldn’t break his trust and my promises towards him, right?
I’m hoping for your understanding and co-operation. I need time to prepared myself in this phase of life. Yes, I know society still need me, but as a nature of life, woman is obliged in her own house than outside. Till everything is finished inside the house, then only she should step out of the house. That is what I learned from my Ummi. She is a career woman and at the same time has to raised 10 children. However, she never neglect her duty and fulfil everything even though I can see she is very tired. I saw she made a lot of sacrifice during that time. May Allah give me strength as my Ummi did.
These are my concern these few weeks. Hope that I can manage my time properly. Don’t worry, I’m not going to give up my dreams. It just that I’m asking for understanding and time for myself to adjust my time according to current situation. May Allah make things easier.
Please pray for me.